7/14/2007 noone but me from URL @ 8:16 AM
I've been sleeping like a PIG the past two days, on thursday i slept from 7.30pm- 5.30 am and last night i slept from 8.30pm- 6.30 am. Seems like i do need my ten hours of sleep, but even then those horrid eye bags refuse to disappear. GRAHH.
& i absolutely hate waking up after falling asleep- note the difference between going to sleep & falling asleep- because i do not get the things that i want done, done. I'm not stupid, i know the effing Os are coming. SLAP ME LA DAMMIT. Then i feel irritated that all my mom does is put the blanket for me when i've fallen asleep on the sofa, or when she deliberately doesn't wake me up when i've repeatedly told her too. But i know my mom loves me too much to see me burning the midnight oil, tired. and for that GRAHH. dont get me wrong, i love my mom & i'd die without her.
This is the price to pay when you're independent and you're losing the discipline that drives you. Thats what NCC has given me, Discipline & i feel it annoyingly slowly ebbing away. This is when i get into pumping position and do pumping holding it there for hundreds, just to prove to myself that i still can. That i still got the discipline i had back then. Dammit, GRAHH.
& i'll attribute this post to studying stress. Plus the teachers aren't exactly helping with the Ridiculously Crazy amount of homework they give. SHEEEEESHHHHKEBABBBBSSSSSSSSSSS.
Well, im going to Sher's house later to rollerblade with her & Muu then later mug.